When is enough enough?At what point do I decide that selfish and self-preservation are two very different things? When do I stop pointing fingers at myself and decide that maybe this ISN'T my fault? And what do I do to change that? How do I get from point A to point B in life doing only for myself and not for others? Is it the destiny laid out for me by the Most High to be everyone's doormat? And that when I get to the point when it's no longer tolerable I snap and have everyone lookin at me sideways with the screwface and wondering "what the fuck happened to her?" do I stand up and tell them? Or....do I cower in fear of rejection and disappointment and continue my lifeless,docile,insignificant existence? Really America...is waiting a futile endeavor?Maybe it's time for me to just do me.
Honestly, every single decision I make in life is made with consideration for SOMEONE else. It may only be one person...but I always wonder what so and so will think if I make X decision. Would it affect so and so negatively if I do X? Would it fuck up a plan already set by so and so if I decide to do X? Well America...maybe it's time to make so and so become no and no. If I don't take care of me physically,emotionally,spiritually,financially and otherwise...then who will? No one that's who. They aren't concerned with MY best interests when they make a decision, so why shouldn't I start makin decisions without consulting them?
I think I've made some muthafuckin progress.
G'Yeah!
On another note....
work is hilarious.
Tsk tsk America. Some folks need the alarm clock of life for a little wake up call. I mean don't get me wrong...I like her alot.She's got a lot of positive qualities professionally speaking but some things are just better off left at home.
On yet ANOTHER note....
Judgement is to be placed on the guilty by the Most High when their time comes. It is not to be placed on innocent bystanders and slow-progressing peers by their "friends" just because they were more fortunate. If there's one thing that I know I've done right....it's fairness. I can honestly say I don't judge people based on decisions that they've made in their personal life. I don't know them like I think I do,of this I'm convinced, and I don't know what they've been through. It's not my place/job/position to tell ANYONE what's right or wrong about their life.My job is to support them,pray for them and love them the best way I can. But for some reason I get the feeling I'm writing this for my own self-assurance then for any other reason.
Holler.
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